About Love in year 2020

This is a hard year to live, isn’t?
There was so much to do that is now suspended because of a invisible and small thing.
Is such a small thing that teaches us how to appreciate even more the small things too.
As a friend long distance call.
As a friend remembering you.
Like someone special thinking on you.
I use to say that I’m better with writing than speaking. In all languages. (Joke)
Day after day I confirm that.
Is simply because life moments are so full of feelings and thoughts that I feel myself a little lost when I need to think while I’m feeling so much at the same time. We can’t never express everything that is inside of us all the time.
Like all the many times I see your face, for exemple.
Is like if some explosion happened inside my body.
There’s too many things that I would like to express but too little words to use and too little time to do it.
But I think I’ve learned this thing from you... Words don’t matter when we can see what we feel in eachother’s eyes.
I hope so. I hope I can do it. I hope u can.
You asked me what I miss about u... I can’t say exactly how many things are.
I said I would make a list. I can’t do it...
Is all about the experience of being close to you, to look at you, to listen to you, to watch you.
Is about being conscious of your reality in front of me. To be able to touch you. To be able to see ur eyes shining when you look at my direction.
Is about remember the feeling of not say goodbye to you or hug you one last time.
There’s too much to say, so I won’t say.
But I’ll feel it every single time I see you. Or listen to you.
I’m always here hoping you are ok. Hoping you to feel happy.
I will always love you.
Your friend,

Jaina.